The Feeling of Insecurity of Myself

I admitted that I am very insecure of myself. Someone said to me, "If you know you are good enough for your bf then you should not have to worry about him leaving you for someone better". But most obviously I can see why, my insecurity is ruining the relationship, I don't trust my partner to be faithful to me, but who can blame them with the way I have been policing his every move.... Has it become illegal for my bf to hang or converse with the opposite sex because they are in a relationship with me?? Should I fix myself? I think, if I fix myself then I would not have to be insecure and jealous over my bf.

It's seriously so terrible.

I don't feel like to talk about it. Arghhh! SERIOUSLY, this morning was terrible.

Like, obviously! Not something that's worth remembering. Anyway, I'm sorry .____.

I want to thanks bb so much for today.
THANK YOU, BOYFRIEND!

Please be careful of what you have said and done!

I am very pissed off with some bastard. I really dislike people who heard some stories about me from other people's mouth and spam the untrue story like it is real. Jealousy is what makes a bitch talk. I truly believe that. What comes around goes around and God is watching you as well.

Be careful of what you have said and done!!!

Feeling Guilty

I was feeling particularly miserable and guilty about not working hard enough. I was so sick of feeling guilty, I just wanted this feeling to go away. Sigh... :( Anyway, let's go back to my earliest memory of guilt. I chuckled as I remembered an early memory. I had gone to PUB with my friends when my mother had told me specifically not to. I remembered feeling 'what kind of person was I to disobey? There must be something wrong with me. I must be a bad person. I didn't know it at the time, but I thought if I could feel bad enough, maybe it would make me act "right".

When I was in Vocational High School, I didn't feel like studying Maths. After years or so into the last semester, I started missing some classes. I felt guilty every time. I thought about how I was wasting my parent's money, how I wasn't disciplined enough, how if I was a good student. I would make myself go, consequently. I felt bad every time I skipped Maths and slept in then class.

Never, ever GIVE UP!!!

I believe that there maybe times when things aren't the way we hope it to be, everything looks impossible and we feel like just giving up.

But then, sometimes, we just have to give it another chance, another try, just one more time.

Take things a step at a time. Do what works best for you. Be hopeful as you embrace each moment. Use ur inner strength and qualities. Keep on believing that u can do it. Look out for the positive light to shine on you.

You may just find that what seem difficult has just been made right.

I will never ever give up on u and even myself

The One and Only Guy.

i love chiazhaoxiong. chiazhaoxiong loves me. LOL.

I love him & I will never let him go, but if I have to.

Boy, I think you should know that all the love we made can never be erased and I promise you that you'll never be replaced. Hold my promise :)

I love you, yes I do. I'll be with you as long as you want me to (until the end of time).

Do you still remember the 1st time we From the day I met u, I knew we'll be together.

The only wish for this Chinese New Year is I want to be with you now & forever

I wish I could be with you and alawys stay by your side whenever you want me to coz I can taking care of you whenever you are unhappy or feeling bad, I can cook a wonderful and perhaps a delicious dinner for you when you have knocked off from work, I can spend every single moment with you (whether you are happy or unhappy), celebrate every special events together with you, and to have your kids. Hehehe *blush*

Tell u honestly, I am truly happy being with u till this day. I never regret having you by my side

If the day come, that I have to let u go.
I think there's something I should probably let you know I enjoyed everyday I've spent with you and of course... I'll miss u because I am happy that I had you at all.

What I hope that day will never ever come coz I love you too much to let you go, Baby!

The year 2009 is coming!

Yes, time will always fly but I do promise our love will never end, cos of my determined!
I love him too much to give u up, I will work hard on this relationship. I promise! Yes, I do promise! :)
Anyway, the year 2009 is coming! Let's welcome it with open arms filled with jugs of peace, abundance of health, full of joy, warmth of love.
It's our FRESH year, FRESH hope, FRESH plans, FRESH efforts,
May 2009 delight us with peace, health, happiness, success, prosperity & joy.

Let's keep the smile, leave the tear, hold the laugh, leave the pain, think of joy, forget the fear
Just be joyous, cos it's new year!
Happy New Year 2009, LOVE! ^^

cheers :)

loves, mayrine