FAILURE

when your best just isn't good enough.

Do you ever feel that you are 'just not good enough' or is it only me. My whole life I've always felt as if I am almost good enough but just not quite there. It's made me depressed but I am accepting. Accepting of the fact that I'm just not good enough to make it. There is always one essential ingredient lacking to prevent me from being a success. I guess, that when it's happened to you your whole entire life at absolutely everything you've tried, then being just not good enough is a part of you. Everytime it happens to me, I just say to myself, "Okay, you're not quite up to scratch, let's see what else we can try." As a result, I have experienced so many things and tried so many things, that I'm a jack of all trades and master of none. There's nothing I can do really well, to be able to make a living from it, yet all my life I've heard how talented I am. So I guess, I'm still searching for that elusive ingredient that'll make me good enough.

That's all I can do and say. :)

No relationship is conflict free...
The end of a relationship is always tough to handle, but tougher still is to be the one to go through the process that is known as getting dumped. :(

There are numerous reasons for a relationship to end. However, all the reasons in the world won’t help to show me how to get through the pain of getting dumped.
Maybe some of you have never been dumped, the chances are you will be.
But have no fear, it is all a part of love and life. Not all relationships are healthy.
Mine is really an unhealthy relationship. FUCKED UP!!!
Unhealthy relationships can leave me feeling uncomfortable, sad and afraid.

I find ways to move on, of getting over being dumped and on with my life. After being broken up with, there are several emotions that I feel, especially these three of the main emotions that are usually felt by me, who is on the receiving end of a break up are anger, sadness, and self-doubt.

Anger might possibly be the swiftest most readily available emotion that someone will react to when they are being broken up with. Arghhhh!!!!!!! Grrrr.... >:O

I also feel as if something I have nurtured has died. :'(

Some say "love is blind" but it doesn't have to be!

PS:"Just because someone loves you doesn't mean that they are also good for you."

Alright, maybe the problem is come from myself. *sigh!
I am not an understanding person.

So to understanding love?

It isn't easy!!!!!!!!!

Every relationship is different and will have its own dynamics and healthy relationships are based on equality in decision making and respect for one another.

This is really realistic and materialistic. :D

I miss you so much ♥

Alright, just a simple I miss you so much could brighten up my evening.

All my hard work pays off beautifully. Thanks Baby, <3.>

These few days, I have been busy and i believe today is the busiest day ever however, i also think that tomorrow will be continuing to be the busiest day again. *sobs. :(

Please get me out of here. I need some oxygen to breathe. Please!!!!!!!!!!!

Alright, I need to go now, will be update tomorrow (maybe) LOL

Good night people. :)
MC loves you!!!

This is how he's always feel for me

♥ is SUGAR, baby, it's sugar
Awww... So sweet of ♥.
It makes me melt.
Just received an e-mail from him. He sent me an above image and he asked me "Can my baby make out how I feel for you? :)" Yes, baby, yes! it's sugar baby, it's sugar, ♥.

The only thing I would like to let you know, there are 8 billion people in this world, but I only want you. ^^

Baby, do you know that...
we were given two hands to hold,
two legs to walk,
two eyes to see,
two ears to listen,
but why only one heart?
It's because the other one was given to someone for us to find.

So when I've found you, I was blessed and I'll never leave you, because I need you, baby. :)

Although, you'll think I am difficult, but if you make an effort. I'll worth it....♥

I ♥ U, BABY!

I felt so touch when I've read their post about me regarding the Saturday's meet up, however we didn't get to meet up each other at all. :O

Anyway, I feel so loved by them. They are really cool and rock, alright.
I must admit that I love them and I know they love me as well. HaHAhahaha.. xDD

That's all :D

OMIGOSH. Hahaha.. I walked to NCHS and I was lost afterall, I found NCHS. Hahaha..
I was feeling so happy at that time. ^^p

I didn't meet up with them. sigh!
I felt so awkward just now. Omigosh, all the people look at me, I think they must be think who am I, am I a paparazzi! :D do you know why? I was holding a camera at that time. For that reason, I feel so uncomfortable. tsk... :(
I was thinking to take photos when they peformed. sigh~~ I couldn't find them, so I gave up!!! tsk tsk tsk.. STUPID ME!!!!!!!!!
If only I know this could be happened, I would not let this happen. I would ask their number so it makes me easily to find them, however, this is all too late., :O










While waiting for the bus, I am waiting for their call and take some photos at there. sianzation. :(
I know this is just a random pictures. :)) heehehe.. forgive me okay? I am not a good photographer.








-FRENCH TOAST & BIG FISH bought from Long John Silver.
-Chocolate Pie bought from 7 eleven.

Above all these food are for SMALL, SLAPPY, SMELLY & Liting, however, I can't manage to meet them so I felt so disappointed and after I've reached home I took all these photos.
I looked at those food and asked myself, how can I finish by myself? Ohhh my~

DISAPPOINTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In seeking happiness for others, you find it for yourself.

Let's find something interesting on my blog.
Cheer up, peoples! :)

If your birthday is on....................
Scroll down to find out about your nature.....

December 23rd - January 1st ~ Red
January 2nd - January 11th ~ Orange
January 12th - January 24th ~ Yellow
January 25th - February 3 ~ Pink
February 4th - February 8th ~ Blue
February 9th - February 18th ~ Green
February 19th - February 28th ~ Brown
March1st - Match 10th ~ Aqua
March 11 - March 20th ~ Lime
March 21st ~ Black
March 22nd - March 31st ~ Purple
April 1st - April 10th ~ Navy
April 11th - April 20th ~ Silver
April 21st - April 30th ~ White
May 2nd - May 14th ~ Blue
May 15th - May 24th ~ Gold
May 25th - June 3rd ~ Cream
June 4th - June13th ~ Gray
June 14 - June 23rd ~ Maroon
June 24th ~ Gray
June 25 - July 4th ~ Red
July 5th - July 14th ~ Orange
July 15th - July 25th ~ Yellow
July 26th - August 4th ~ Pink
August 5th - August 13th ~ Blue
August 14th - August 23rd ~ Green
August 24 - September 2nd ~ Brown
September 3rd - September12th ~ Aqua
September 13th - September 22nd ~ Lime
September 23rd ~ Olive
September 24th - October 3rd ~ Purple
October 4th - October 13th ~ Nave
October 14th - October 23rd ~ Silver
October 24 - November 11th ~ White
November 12th - November 21st ~ Gold
November 22nd - December1st ~ Cream
December 2nd - December11th ~ Gray
December 12th - December 21st ~ Maroon
December 22nd ~ Teal

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RED
Cute and lovable type, you are picky but always in love ...and liked to be loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times. Capable with people, nice, soft and that can love you for the way you are. Likes people that are easy to talk to, and can make you feel comfortable.

CREAM
Competitive and sportive. Don't like losing and always cheerful! You are trustworthy, and very out-going. You choose love carefully, and don't fall in love easily. But once you find the right one, you don't let go for a long long time.

TEAL
You are mostly interested in your looks. And have high standards in picking love. You think and make a solution precisely, and hardly make stupid mistakes. You like to lead, and is easy for you to make new friends.

GREY
You are attractive, and active. You never hide your feelings, and express everything that's inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to be noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up people's day. You know what to say at the right time, and you have a good sense of humor.

GREEN
You get along well with new people. You are not really a shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words... You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single, waiting for the right person.

GOLD
You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.

PINK
You are always trying your best in everything, and like to help and care for other people. But you are not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts, and you look for romantic love like in a fairytale.

YELLOW
You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong leadership towards relationships. You make good decision and make the right choice at the right time. And always dreaming of romantic relationship.

MAROON
You are intelligent, and know what's right. You like to take things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble or not thinking about other people's feelings. But you are patient when it comes to love... Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.

ORANGE
You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals to reach, and are competitive. When it comes to friendship, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them for ever.

PURPLE
You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for person that's trustworthy.

LIME
You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jealous easily, and complain over little things. You can't get stuck into one thing, but you have a capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you.

SILVER
You are imaginative and shy, but you like trying new things. You like to challenge yourself. You learn things easily, and like "Hard to get". Your love life is normally hard and confusing.

WHITE
You dream and have goals in your life. You get jealous easily and you don't react to things easily. You are different and sometimes thought highly by others.

OLIVE
You are warm and light hearted. You seem to flow well with friends and family. You don't like violence and know what's right. You are kind and cheerful, but don't envy other people easily.

BROWN
You are active and sportive. It's hard for other people to become close with you, but you fall in love easily. But once you find out you can't get something, you give up and let go easily as well.

BLUE
You have low self-esteem, and very picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your heart.

NAVY
You are attractive, and love your life. You have a strong feeling towards everything. And very easily distracted. Once you get angry at someone, it's hard for you to forgive them.

AQUA
Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are always lonely, and like travelling. You are truthful, but listen and believe other people too easily. It's hard to find love for you, and you get lost in love easily. Sometimes you get hurt by love.

BLACK
You are challenging, and have the "guts". But you don't like changes in your life. And once you make a decision, you keep it that way for a long time. Your love life is also challenging, and different.

God reserved something special for me.
There is more to my lives than I ever thought.
There is more to my story than what I have read before.
There is more to the song than what I have sang yesterday night.

A good author saves the best for last.
A great composer keeps his finest for the finish.
And God, the author of life and the composer of hope has done the same for me.

The best is yet to come...

REMEMBER PC'S 50MEGAWATT SMILE. :)

Oh well, I think most of you have known that my iPhone lost.
For who doesn't know, let me tell you....

MY iPhone LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sigh!!!!!!!!!!


Nothing I can do at this moment, I've tried lots of different way, I'm regretting now, cos if I have downloaded a mobileme account onto my iPhone, then I could be easily track my HP using the IMEI number.

Apart from that, I've asked for help from SingTel about what Daryl told me: Is there anything they could help me? My iPhone has lost, so I think maybe inside iPhone have a chip that is able to locate the location.
Do you know what did they say? They said, there's no such thing. FINE, MAN!!!!!!!

Even SingTel also can't help me.
Who else can I blame? Only myself. SOBS!!!

I wonder why they are so cruel, never think of what might others feel if their valuable things has lost. :(
Indeed, such people are terrible. *sigh!
However, I still hope she will give me back my phone or bring my phone to the police station or whatever. Although, I know it's impossible.

♥♥♥ I LOVE YOU, BABY!!! ♥♥♥

L is for the way you LOOK at me
O is for the Only One I see
V is Very, Very extraordinary
E is Even more than anyone can adore you

M is the way you have mesmerize me
I is for the Ideal one I seek
S is for your very Supportive in me
and another S is for that Special Smile to me :)

I LOVE YOU, ♥.